Feel the grief

You never understand pain until you feel it

you never really feel other peoples pain

or really sympathise with them

nor put yourself in their shoes when you don’t just understand

until now i have considered myself somewhat of a strong person

i hardly cry and would never shed a tear for something less trivial

okay, maybe that’s a lie

i cry, i cry a lot

but then you never know some sort of pain until you connect with it

if you consider yourself emotionally strong

well here’s a series for you ‘This is us’

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i first heard about this series on someones snap and couldn’t help but check it out

It recounts the story of a couple expecting triplets who lost one of the them and adopted another baby.

now am not going to give you spoilers here but, this i can say – every episode shows an emotional moment they brings you back to reality as you connect with these scenes. The first Season which began last year has 18 episodes and the season 2 is already scheduled for the 26th of September.

So check it out -you never know grief till you feel it

With love

Temi_sarita

x

GraTITude

It feels so easy for people to wake upĀ  and start asking

why don’t i have it yet?

i need this now!

i don’t have this and that

why is my life the same?

but then we forget

to count our blessings and recognise the value of what we already have

okay

so you want a car, a house maybe and all that life’s luxury

but then again

you woke up today didn’t you?

this brings me back to quote i came across from Amanda Torroni’s book which i haven’t read yet titled ‘stargazing at noon’

“remember yesterday when you swore you wouldn’t make it through you woke up this morning didn’t you”
yeah you woke up this morning didn’t you.
I don’t want to be a little cliche here but when there’s life there’s hope. you might not have everything you desire but be grateful for what you have.
in other news i figured i haven’t shared any songs lately but as you get on with your days activities why dont you plug on this one from Soule titled goodlife

enjoy!!

With love
Temi_sarita
x

Self-respect

Everyday I wake up I can feel a part of my being moving away,

I can feel that something is taken away gradually from me.

I am slipping away,

myself, my body, my being.

I am losing myself into someone or something that

I feel that i have no control of anything.

I want you so bad that sometimes i feel that i can do anything for you

I need that possession so badly that i feel that i can leave anything for it

It feels so horrible when you find yourself in a situation when

you cannot no longer control your own thoughts

your own actions

when you want to make a decision

and you cannot do it alone

when you put someone else before you

when you are second and even third place in things that matter to your life.

Well,

Hello there,

I am self-respect and those who lose me experience these things

They lose themselves into other experiences

They do things for people to please them

They do things for people for what they can get from them

or what they feel things people can do for them

they take advantage of people and

they are taken advantage of

they are not in control of their thoughts nor actions

what they previously considered as colours then become black and white

they gradually become deceived into thinking the things they loved

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F.I.N.E

I was watching one of Ralph smart’s videos on YouTube, an amasing guy with so much energy. i’ll insert a link to his page at the end. But then, something he said .

Fine- Fedup, Insecure, Emotional and Neurotic

got me thinking. when we say ‘i am fine’ do we really mean it. Fine has become that universal thing we say even when, deep down, we are suffering or we are in pain.

So here’s a little Piece titled fine

It’s bright and early day, or atleast that what my mind tells me.

I get up because, i have to work but then, i can still feel my bed calling back at me

but no i must work because, i have too

My mother calls and says -hey dear, how are you?

I quickly say -fine

yes, i am fine

I would not want her to worry about me even when i feel the pain burning so deep down my heart

I say fine because its the easier alternative

Yes, i am fine mother

I go to work, actually running, trying to catch the bus

but still i miss it, like i always do

and i have to wait long till another comes by

how bad can my day go

Then it starts raining

oops spoke too soon

it starts raining heavily and i become drenched with water

how do i even turn up at work looking like this?

within my thoughts the bus comes and i rush in

then again there’s traffic on the road it appears that this is the time that the major road construction taking place

oh well

i was in the bus for a good 30 minutes before i was able to make it out.

At this point considering am already 10 minutes late i was pleased that my clothes where almost try.

then as i try to cross the road to my office

I bump into a woman carrying her coffee and it splits all over me.

she quickly apologised

OMG… are you okay? am so sorry

and i said

its okay am fine.

there i go again saying fine but what else could i say

of course i was fine

i was fine but

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Ego

I am proud

yes, i am very proud

If i give you rules, you take them as commandments

you live by them and you worship them like a deity

If i tell you to do something, you better take it seriously and do it

I think am better than anybody and everyone

you do something for me, i have to cross-check

analyse, verify

until i take it as the best or at least decent quality

i am picky and i trust no one

do i even trust myself?

I have trust issues, if you disappoint me once

i will never believe you again

okay maybe i would

if my level of trust is on a scale of 1 to 10

for you every single time you disappoint me

you drop gradually down the scale

yes and if you do something that breaks me mentally

i may never believe you again

distance is what i will keep between us

when i walk, i walk straight and tall because any and every other person is not up to my standard

i like my voice been heard and if i see that you are competing with me for the spotlight

you become my enemy and i need to take you down and be in another thing

who are you to share the same limelight with me

i don’t believe in sharing, sharing are for peasants

i am not one of those

i am who i am,

do not deceive me

stay in your own lane

mind your business

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Life is a pot of beans

they say life is beautiful

they say life is hard

they say life is what you make of it

well,

this might be one of the realest comments yet

but

what does this actually mean

are we truly the author of our destiny

or are we doomed to end up a certain way regardless

do we have choirs do we really

or are they mere ‘choices’ that are in fact not there

because we will opt for the actual one

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this,

maybe is what we are destined to

are you are believer of destiny

do you feel or hold on to certain beliefs that can influence your life

do you just roll with life

do you just seek to find peace in life

find money

maybe a partner

a house

a career

and the many things society sets as the prerequisites of ‘a successful life’

do you even value success

or how do you even define it

so, you there

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