Everyday I wake up I can feel a part of my being moving away,
I can feel that something is taken away gradually from me.
I am slipping away,
myself, my body, my being.
I am losing myself into someone or something that
I feel that i have no control of anything.
I want you so bad that sometimes i feel that i can do anything for you
I need that possession so badly that i feel that i can leave anything for it
It feels so horrible when you find yourself in a situation when
you cannot no longer control your own thoughts
your own actions
when you want to make a decision
and you cannot do it alone
when you put someone else before you
when you are second and even third place in things that matter to your life.
I am self-respect and those who lose me experience these things
They lose themselves into other experiences
They do things for people to please them
They do things for people for what they can get from them
or what they feel things people can do for them
they take advantage of people and
they are taken advantage of
they are not in control of their thoughts nor actions
what they previously considered as colours then become black and white
they gradually become deceived into thinking the things they loved