I was watching one of Ralph smart’s videos on YouTube, an amasing guy with so much energy. I’ll insert a link to his page at the end. But then, something he said:
Fine- Fed–up, Insecure, Emotional and Neurotic
got me thinking. when we say ‘i am fine’ do we really mean it. Fine has become that universal thing we say even when, deep down, we are suffering or we are in pain.
So here’s a little Piece titled fine
It’s bright and early day, or at least that what my mind tells me.
I get up because, i have to work but then, i can still feel my bed calling back at me
but no i must work because, i have too
My mother calls and says -hey dear, how are you?
I quickly say -fine
yes, i am fine
I would not want her to worry about me even when i feel the pain burning so deep down my heart
I say fine because its the easier alternative
Yes, i am fine mother
I go to work, actually running, trying to catch the bus
but still i miss it, like i always do
and i have to wait long till another comes by
how bad can my day go
Then it starts raining
oops spoke too soon
it starts raining heavily and i become drenched with water
how do i even turn up at work looking like this?
within my thoughts the bus comes and i rush in
then again there’s traffic on the road it appears that this is the time that the major road construction taking place
i was in the bus for a good 30 minutes before i was able to make it out.
At this point considering am already 10 minutes late i was pleased that my clothes where almost try.
then as i try to cross the road to my office
I bump into a woman carrying her coffee and it splits all over me.
she quickly apologised
OMG… are you okay? am so sorry
and i said
its okay am fine.
there i go again saying fine but what else could i say
of course i was fine
i was fine but
i was not fine.
walked into the office looked a mess and the first thing am greeted with
is my boss screaming
why are you late again.
i try to ignore his words while trying to apologise
to be honest I’ve had even more horrible days
but i still say am fine when in reality
i am Fed–up, Insecure, Emotional and Neurotic
but yeah ‘fine’ sounds nicer
and here is a link to Ralph’s page Ralph Smart – Infinite waters